It's weird to go back through something as personal as a blog and try to remember who you were as a person. I'm finding it difficult to remember what it was all like back then. How my mind worked, how I processed it all, how I formed some of the thoughts I would never come across now.
I've come to envy that girl. The simplicity of being 16 when my biggest concern was when I'd get my license and what I'd wear to school everyday. She had so much spare time to spend doing all the things I wish I had more time for: writing, music, friends, family.
But at the same time, as I'm approaching my 19th birthday and I look back on all the things that have happened since then and how much I've grown, I start to reject that girl. She spent so much of that time worrying about what others would think and hating herself for not fitting in, she forgot the beauty in being yourself. Instead, she became a pessimist of herself and the world around her.
I'd be lying if I claimed to be the most optimistic, confident girl who used every second of her life doing everything that she always wanted, but I can honestly say I'm much better off now than I was then.
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