Even though, overall, I'm happy with the way I've changed things for myself, I know that there are still things I need to work on.
I'm beginning to feel a little ashamed even. That I let things get out of hand.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
SEXSEXSEXSEX
Not for viewers who take things too seriously. Also probably not the best for a younger audience
I hate how taboo sex is. It's almost like a silent, but well known, rule that talking about sex in public is unacceptable. But why? By this age, most of us have had sex, and saying you hate sex is like saying you hate chocolate. No one really hates chocolate, and if you do, you still have some every now and then.
So I will be one of the first to come out bluntly and state the facts: I've had sex before. Not with a mountain high of different guys, but it's not my first rodeo. And I like sex. Probably as much as any person out there. And while I don't intend to ever have had sex with 30 partners or something absurd like that, but at the same time I'm not waiting around for my future husband. I stay safe, use protection, and avoid unwanted pregnancy like everyone else.
Just be honest. Having sex isn't going to kill you. I don't think anyone really these days expects to find someone who's a virgin until marriage, and if you do, I'm sorry, but you're nuts. Don't be stupid, use a rubber, make sure your friend's wearing a coat before he goes into the cave, and just get to it already.
I hate how taboo sex is. It's almost like a silent, but well known, rule that talking about sex in public is unacceptable. But why? By this age, most of us have had sex, and saying you hate sex is like saying you hate chocolate. No one really hates chocolate, and if you do, you still have some every now and then.
So I will be one of the first to come out bluntly and state the facts: I've had sex before. Not with a mountain high of different guys, but it's not my first rodeo. And I like sex. Probably as much as any person out there. And while I don't intend to ever have had sex with 30 partners or something absurd like that, but at the same time I'm not waiting around for my future husband. I stay safe, use protection, and avoid unwanted pregnancy like everyone else.
Just be honest. Having sex isn't going to kill you. I don't think anyone really these days expects to find someone who's a virgin until marriage, and if you do, I'm sorry, but you're nuts. Don't be stupid, use a rubber, make sure your friend's wearing a coat before he goes into the cave, and just get to it already.
Who really knows or cares
I've been getting so down on myself because I feel like I've lost all ambition. Without a major or any idea what I intend to do it's like I'm also without passion or drive.
But today I realized, just because I have no major or no real interests to follow, I'm still full of dreams. I want to spend a few years in life just traveling where ever, doing odd jobs to pay rent for my crappy apartments, just to experience as much as I can.
So even though I have no major and no real base to go off, I have plans and initiative to get me to where I hope to be someday.
But today I realized, just because I have no major or no real interests to follow, I'm still full of dreams. I want to spend a few years in life just traveling where ever, doing odd jobs to pay rent for my crappy apartments, just to experience as much as I can.
So even though I have no major and no real base to go off, I have plans and initiative to get me to where I hope to be someday.
put a smile on
I've never understood how people can be sad for a long period of time.
If you pretend to be happy, even when everything's going to shit, you start to feel happy and it all just seems to go away. Guaranteed.
If you pretend to be happy, even when everything's going to shit, you start to feel happy and it all just seems to go away. Guaranteed.
I'm working on me
Most of the population, including myself a majority of the time, are too passive. We don't speak our minds, or call someone out when they're wrong, or just throw in our opinions.
I know I've always been scared of being viewed as pushy or annoying or wrong. But what's so bad about that? So what if I get into an argument on a topic I care about and you think I'm pushy? Who cares if a few people begin to think my views are annoying? And aren't we all wrong at some point or another? I'd rather be seen as a little out there, than not being remembered at all.
I know I've always been scared of being viewed as pushy or annoying or wrong. But what's so bad about that? So what if I get into an argument on a topic I care about and you think I'm pushy? Who cares if a few people begin to think my views are annoying? And aren't we all wrong at some point or another? I'd rather be seen as a little out there, than not being remembered at all.
Monday, September 10, 2012
Sorry for my rant
I'm not afraid to admit that I'm afraid.
I spend so much of my time trying to decide what it is that I want to do for the rest of my life instead of just letting it happen. I thought majoring in finance would be a smart idea and I'd make money and be happy, but that's just a front. It's so I have an answer if someone asks what I'm doing with my life and I feel less lame than admitting that I'm lost.
Maybe I should retrace my steps, back to high school when I had all the time in the world and had my heart set on teaching high school English. Because lately as I've begun working with high school students entering college or high school kids in student council, it feels a little like my calling.
This is such an awful blog. I'm just lost and confused.
I spend so much of my time trying to decide what it is that I want to do for the rest of my life instead of just letting it happen. I thought majoring in finance would be a smart idea and I'd make money and be happy, but that's just a front. It's so I have an answer if someone asks what I'm doing with my life and I feel less lame than admitting that I'm lost.
Maybe I should retrace my steps, back to high school when I had all the time in the world and had my heart set on teaching high school English. Because lately as I've begun working with high school students entering college or high school kids in student council, it feels a little like my calling.
This is such an awful blog. I'm just lost and confused.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
sad panda
I remember when I was younger how I loved being sick.
The way my voice would change and when my dad would make me soup in bed as I stayed home from school made getting sick entertaining and a nice change of pace from the norm.
But now that I'm older and sick, I'm realizing it doesn't hold the same appeal that it did for me back then. Because now I can't skip school, no one makes me soup, and my roommates just laugh at me.
The way my voice would change and when my dad would make me soup in bed as I stayed home from school made getting sick entertaining and a nice change of pace from the norm.
But now that I'm older and sick, I'm realizing it doesn't hold the same appeal that it did for me back then. Because now I can't skip school, no one makes me soup, and my roommates just laugh at me.
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