There are so many things that I wish I could say to you. And it's not that I'm afraid to say them, it's that I'm afraid of your reaction. Because you've admitted to me before that even if I say what's on my mind and you feel it too, just hearing it makes you retract. Like maybe you're scared of what can happen, getting so close to someone. So I'm going to say what I'd like to say to you here in hopes of containing myself.
I hope you know you have my whole heart. And I know that sometimes I seem irritated with you and angry, but I am so grateful that you put up with it all. Because despite how I might act, I know losing you would shatter me.
Never have I ever been comfortable with the thought of being tied down, in a real relationship with someone, until it came down to you. I no longer have the fear of feeling displeased and bored with my life because everyday with you is an adventure. Whether we sit at your house playing Halo or we're spending a day at the park, each day is different from the last. And I know that you could make me happy regardless.
I understand that we can't spend every minute of every day together. And that we can't spend the night together every night. But it doesn't mean I don't want to.
I don't want you to just be my boyfriend, I want you to be my best friend. I don't want to feel guilty because of the amount of time I'm spending with you, my boyfriend. I want it to be okay that I spend all that time with you because you are my best friend.
And I may not be in love with you, but I sure am falling. It's the way my heart still skips a beat for you when I see your smile. The way I get butterflies when you stare into my eyes before you kiss me. The way I can effortlessly laugh with you because I'm genuinely happy. The way we can do anything together and I'm just happy to be with you.

I hope one day it won't scare you, so that I can look you in the eyes and tell you I'm so blissfully happy with you. And I wouldn't change us for the world.