I wonder what chapter in the book of my life this will all be in. The chapter where I have a moment of clarity and my heart mends and I move on? The chapter that I reflect on and recall as one horrible mistake, where I lose my love? The chapter that contains the true beginning of our relationship?
I'm not sure that would make it better though, to know the outcome. Not now. The uncertainty of it all is that only thing that keeps me sane. Preparing for the fall out, but hoping for the romance. Either would be easier than what I imagine will come of this: a friendship. I know that when I see you as we try to build a friendship, that I will continue to fall in love with you, more and more everyday. Your bright blue eyes, your sincere smile, your kind heart, and your maturing soul.
What do I hope for? What chapter am I rooting for? I'm rooting for the chapter where I can look at you and smile with blissful happiness at whatever we come out of this as.
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