Fear

I'm scared of so many things it's ridiculous to even think of.

I fear imperfection. Of being criticized and picked apart. Like.. I'm being found out. That someone can find a vulnerable spot in my shield.
I fear rejection. Maybe it's because it's a bit similar to imperfection. If I was perfect, there would be no need to be rejected, right?
I fear the future. Growing up, and having to take care of myself. And later on down the road.. not just myself, but others. I'm not sure if I'm up for it.
I fear committment. Having to stay grounded with something or someone for a long period of time. Losing excitment in my life that had once existed, because I have to stay attached to something..
I fear being forgotten. I don't want people to mention my name.. and those who were once closest to me to have to ask who that is. To leave a mark on the world, that's a sure fire way to be remembered.
And don't even get me started on actual things, like, tangible things. Bugs, spiders, heights (which no, aren't tangible, but still.. you get it.)
But I think more than anything.. I fear death. Dying. Decaying. Under the ground. Ashes in a yern. What comes after death? Do we all go to heaven? Is there really a feeling of dying, or are you simply reborn, reincarnated? I think if I had three wishes.. I'd use at least one so that I could die for a day, only for a day, just to see what it's like on the other side.